Up North

In Michigan, when we go north we call it going "Up North" - it usually to me means somewhere near the Bridge - the Mackinaw Bridge. Well I am currently about 30 some odd miles from it so I think that it counts. I am up north to do a craft show in Charlevoix this weekend.

The trip up here was a long one. 4 hours. There are lots and lots of trees in Michigan - Detroit is an oddity in a state that is so darn beautiful. But lots and lots of pine trees the further north I got the more there were.

I saw a few things that were like - what the hell were they thinking - just after 131 went from highway to two lanes there was a campground on the left side of the road with a nice looking playground and maybe a quarter mile up the road was a sign that said "Prison Area - do not pick up hitchhikers". Not a campground I think I will stay at anytime soon!

Oh and I guess somewhere and I did not know this I passed the 45th parallel - it is half way between the Equator and the North Pole.

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I still had lots of thoughts about Lee today. I miss him so much. I was wondering how his Harley Davidson fund was going. I cant remember what type of bike he is planning on getting. I wonder if I can ride with him on it. I remember he said he wanted to take a trip on it when he got back from Afghanistan before he went back to his regular job. I would love to go with him on his trip.

I hope that I am not kidding myself by thinking I will hear from him again. I think I will. But it will still be a while I think. I think it will be closer to when he is about to come home.

Even right now I am about to tear up - the thought of not talking to him one last time upsets me. I just want him to man up if he does not want to talk to me ever again. I mean the man is a sergeant - he knows how to tell people shit they dont wanna hear.

There is stuff that I just dont understand. I really think the headache medicine is screwing with him. This is a man who almost always made a point to get with me before he had to leave or go do something. Then all of a sudden - poof - nothing.

I have a Kelly Clarkston song running through my head - the one that says - want you to know that I could not have loved you better - your already gone. Or some such shit. lol.

It all seems like a dream now. Our trip to Vegas was 3 months ago. It was the best time I ever had there. We just had fun and a real nice time. Hot sex! Damn it was good. Oh well - memories!!!!!

Computer battery is about to give out. It feels good to have gotten some of it out of my head and on to the computer screen.

Baby- I miss you and just want to be held in your arms again. Wanna feel your hands in my hair as you kiss me deep. Night baby - stay safe and think about holding me as we sleep. Kisses baby