I wrote down some thoughts on Saturday but had not had the time to post it here.
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Thoughts go back and forth looking out over the marina. All the boats - hop aboard and motor towards Lake Michigan - you can go anywhere from there.
My thoughts to go Afghanistan and my short little half Mexican soldier. I still hope he things about me. Today is day 4 since I sent him any messages. I hope my pulling back works. Or will it. I hope he knows that I did not forget him or give up on him. I think that is what worries me the most. I am not trying to play games. All I want is him to call me.
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Those were just some of my thoughts as I sat at the back of my booth on Saturday. Nothing profound or earth shattering.
I miss talking to him so much. I would always look forward to our talks. It made me so happy when he was able to either chat with me or call. I loved seeing his face on my computer monitor. Watching him smile. Telling me to put my tongue back in my mouth - with a big ole smile on his face. Seeing him give me kisses when we would sign off. It was funny when he would call me when lights were out in his building - the glow of the computer monitor made it so I could see the outlines of his face - kinda very Blaire Witch Project.
He would call me at night when he could not sleep - he had a lot of problems sleeping prior to them putting him on the headache medicine. We would talk for at least a few hours almost every day. He would pop on facebook or yahoo and tell me that he would get to talk to me soon - just pop on to say hi and that he would be back after the briefings or a meeting. It always seemed like he enjoyed talking to me.
I knew he missed me.
It was a tough couple of weeks when he was traveling from Vegas back to his base - that volcano in Iceland stranded him in Spain for a while. I got two messages during that time - both ended with "miss you".
Lee - Baby I know you are out there somewhere and I pray to God everyday that you will be back with me. Also, that he keep you safe.
I just wish I knew what was going on - if we are done please let me know, if we aren't but ya don't have a lot of time please let me know that too. I miss you bunches and bunches.
I knew the risks and I have no regrets. I just love and miss my soldier.... kisses baby
